Saturday, January 13, 2007

Life is like a roller coaster, sometimes u r on top of the world, sometimes u r dangling of ur seats, upside down. Currently, i feel that my life is like the latter scenario of the roller coaster ride, making me feel disoriented and dizzy, unable to find my footing on the ground.

After seeing the class pic of my ex-cg, i was hit by a overwhelming sense of melancholy. I missed my old cg tremendously, missing the people, the fun and everything in the past. What i have enjoyed in the past are what that are missing in my current life, the feeling of belonging, the coziness and the familiarity. I know i m being silly, trying to cling to the past but it is something that i m reminded of everyday. Maybe, I should be content with what i have now n learn to count my blessings.

The start of school is the end of me...hahs...i agreed wholeheartedly. After a long break from school, instead of feeling cleansed, refreshed and ready for the start of a new school year, i feel apprehensive and dreaded the new year before it has even started.

~graceygal~

feeling so sweet ; 9:54 PM;Y

Thursday, January 11, 2007

feeling so sweet ; 7:00 PM;Y

A brand year has started. Seeing the year ones walking around brought me down my memory lane. Remember the time when i was like them, naive, ignorant and full of dreams, not quite knowing the true colours of reality. Now, a year has passed, i have grown older, wiser and more wary. After a year of struggling and trying, i am only rewarded with occasional small successes, never truly belonging or fitting in. Although, it may seem like a complete puzzle on the exterior, it is actually one with pieces missing in the heart. Sometimes, i am struck with a sense of wistfulness, wishing that i am back in the past where everything seems easier.

In school, everything seems familiar and unfamiliar at the same time. The things that one sees and hears are still as it is but the feelings are a millions times different from those in the past. Everything except for the dmn gang feels different. i dunno why but i always feel that there are whisperings and furtive glances flicked in my way. i wondered if i am just being suspicious or it is really true. anyway, wadever, i dun really care about what u all think.

feeling so sweet ; 5:31 PM;Y

~A simple girl yet complicated
~A dreamer yet realistic
~A perfectionist yet imperfect
~29 AUG, my b'dae
~I have the mind of an artist, even if I haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, I enjoy finding new ways to share my feelings. I often feel like I don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. I have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.
~My strength: Your vivid imagination
~My weakness: Fear of failure

LOVES

~FAMILY
~friends
~MYSELF
~love
~CLOUDS
~wind
~TREES
~dark chocs
~*YOU*