whoosh...flying over the world

Friday, March 31, 2006

Hmm...a new beginning..feeling very weird n out of place in my new life. I do not know if the problem lies with me or lies with them. Of course, i would like to think that the problem lies with them rather than me but i think i m partly at fault too. i may seem a little unfriendly to them..i dunno why..new peeps always find me unfriendly. I am not unfriendly or distant, it is just that i m self concious n dunno how to communicate with new peeps. People who dunno me will think that i am a very serious person but i am not.. i m very crazy with all my friends. Probably i need to learn to open up more to people n let them see the fun side of me. But i dunno how to go about it..haix. How i wished i could be like the others, those who can mix around so well with people they have just met. I just do not have that kind of genes in me...haix

I hope i will get use to it soon n will not feel like i dun belong in my new life...jia you girl!

feeling so sweet ; 9:48 PM;Y

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Hmmm...starting new school life...meeting new people. Will it be as sucessful n fruitful as before? I do hope so! Sigh...taking 4H2, dun even know can survive or not...hoping i can though. Nevermind, i have a superb tuition teacher, the only problem is that he is busier than me...sigh. Nevermind, i still have a bunch of dependable friends that will study with me, through thick n thin...yes, i will depend on u guys liao...haas. Aiyaya...must go for make up lectures till may which means that i will go home veri late everydae...haix. by the time i reach home, i dun think i will have the energy to study n do work...how m i going to survive through all this?

feeling so sweet ; 11:06 PM;Y

Saturday, March 04, 2006

Aiyaya...why am i feeling depressed though i got into the college of my dreams. After i left TP, i started to miss it. I missed cg 06s12 n all my tutors. After two months there, it is hard to just pack n leave without feeling anything. i really had a wonderful time there. i still remember the time when we want to skip gp but met the teacher on our course of escaping..haa. Also the time we want skip gp lecture but was forced to go becos the teacher called me. Also, the time we took photos, the smoking poses, bowling poses n s12 poses. Also, how we always take a long long time to reach our lessons esp maths. i gonna miss all the dunmanites that r going elsewhere esp jean. sigh...been in the same school for so long, feel veri weird to be in different schools now but i guess we will meet up often so it is ok. But then, i wun hav anyone to go toilets wif me, tolerate my stupid questions n vomiting habit. Aiyaya, hard to find someone who can tolerate me. Hiyaya...also must 4get him liao..haahaa..but not that easy cos his name always come up..how to 4get when i m reminded of him every now n then..sigh...

Also, i need to adapt to a new environment again n meet new peeps. Not that i dun like to meet more peeps but i m veri self concious n i feel weird in umfamiliar environment. Sigh...how? feeling a little lost n lonely.

feeling so sweet ; 11:18 PM;Y

Heartfelt thanks n big hugs to all who have made my 2 months in TPJC the best times of my life.

Firstly, arigatoks to all the Dunmanites who are in TPJC especially those in OGD N CGD. During these two months, i have known many of u better especially those in 4B. I have really enjoy all the times we had together. Thanks u veri much for letting me know u all beter.

Secondly, arigatoks to my crazie but fun CG, 06S12. You guys are the best CG ever...i can never forget the crazy times we had together, especially the times when fail to skip GP n the photo taking sessions n maths tutorials. Haas...though we are in different colleges now, we have to meet up often n remain in contact. I wish all of u well n all the best! Thanks n hugs!

Thirdly, arigatoks to my OG, ABBA 40. Though, we are together 4 onli one week, i enjoyed myself. U guys are the first peeps that i know in TP, i will never forget u guys. Wish u all well n all the best!

Next, huge thanks to all my tutors in TPJC [ Mr Ivan Sum, civics cum phy tutor, Mrs Sze, maths tutor, Ms Ng, econs tutor, Mdm Nuraida, GP tutor, Mdm Twu, chinese tutor n Mdm Neo, chem tutor ] and oso to the lecturers. Thanks u all 4 ur generous attention n time. I have learnt a lot from all of u...thank u! i will never 4get u all esp mr sum n mrs sze.

Also, thanks to TP CO. Though i onli went to one practice, i enjoyed my time there. Thanks to all the seniors especially the one who taught me how to play liu qin.

Lastly, thanks n hugs to everyone that i have met in TP!

feeling so sweet ; 10:31 PM;Y

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Having no answer is the best answer.This is always my belief. Why do i think so? I feel that having no answer will give me the opportunities to dream n fantasize about the answer. I know this sounds very stupid n even cowardly, but i m a dreamer. I like to dream n imagine about all kinds of things in life. Everything will eventually be smashed by reality, i know that but...I dunno how to explain my feelings but all i can say is that i like to add vibrant colours to my life, be it real or not.

Having no choice is probably the best choice? I feel that when u hav too many choices, there will difficulty in making ur final decision. There will be an opportunity cost incur..hees. In this way, u will not have to think about what u are sacrificing to make this decision.

Sigh...why must life be so difficult? why cant it be simplify? sigh..

feeling so sweet ; 10:01 PM;Y

Yesterday was the past, today is the present and tomorrow is the future.

We should forget the past, cherish the present and look forward to the future, correct? Hmm..then why can't i forget the past? i very much want to forget it, get over it, pick up the broken pieces and move on but i just cant do it.
What am i going to do? Though i tried my very best to forget it, it will pop up again suddenly, catching me completely off guard, affecting me in all kinds of ways. Sigh...i need a memory loss potion..haas.

feeling so sweet ; 9:51 PM;Y

~A simple girl yet complicated
~A dreamer yet realistic
~A perfectionist yet imperfect
~29 AUG, my b'dae
~I have the mind of an artist, even if I haven't developed the talent yet. Expressive and aware, I enjoy finding new ways to share my feelings. I often feel like I don't fit in - especially in traditional environments. I have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.
~My strength: Your vivid imagination
~My weakness: Fear of failure

LOVES

~FAMILY
~friends
~MYSELF
~love
~CLOUDS
~wind
~TREES
~dark chocs
~*YOU*